I am Found in Him

I love Jesus with all my Heart, I love the things he teaches me despite my natural desire to not always execpt them with a willing heart. I have learned so much about ministry in the past couple of months, through Marriage, through working a normal job again and not being in school, through the interuptions that come our way, through Friends who have stayed friends and those who have slowly drifted away, and also my family, all of them who I love so much. I have become more of myself through trial and error now more than I ever was before. It feels great to just be who you are, when you are just that God can use you the best. When you try to fit in and become something your not eventually the mask gets uncomftorable. I love transparency, it's the key to true friendships, it the key to very few burdens. I look back now on so much of these past few years seeing what God has brought me through and taught me and it was not really until now that I have finally learned all those lessons. Identity can be a crisis for many a trademark for most. What can a man say about him self when the end of the day is over and he realizes that it was someone else that put on his shoes that morning, someone else that drove his car, and someone else that decided to make decisions for him. The only thing I think he could say is Why? I love how even though we are following Christ he still has a patience towards us that allows our deception to reveal itself. Simpley put I was a sinner saved by grace through faith, I'm now and have been for 14 yrs a follower of Christ. I'm not a Marine, a football player, a bible student, I'm none of these things. They are all things that I have done or things that I was doing but not who I was or am. I am, and all that I can be is found in Christ, I responded to his outpouring cry of Love for me, that makes me his, that is who I am. I once hid behind many images and masks, but at the end of the day I wanted to wear my own shoes. How temporary those things were how much time wasted. But what better could there be than to give yourself over to Christ, to have eternal purpose and eternal value. Nothing could be better!!! I was journaling a few days ago and I had this picture of Christ. Who is he that Rides the White Horse, who is he that holds the septor of life. He is one that no man can compare and no tounge could describe. He is one that in the midst of all storms he walks gently without ripple, he is one that in the midst of all noise speaks with only whisper and tender voice. He is one that when wars come against you shield and sword will stand fiercly at post and let no harm bestow you. He is one that when wounds are deep and shame can cover no further will lift you from darkness into life. He is my king, my Savior, and the Hope of all the world!!!